Watching a pine tree from his place on
the brown carpet made of locks and
purple veins pumping with monarch blood
not made for the heart’s feint expedition
through one’s first dare as the heat
of the body tries to keep up with the
don’t listen to
a word I say it cantbreathecantbreathe
doesn’t seem don’t believe me / malignant
like the t r u t h self – my mind – destruct
is truth a thing I want it to be or is that just me
m ind reading? remind me.
- feeling expressing how y o u were feeling
conversation memory ; conversation breathing a practice in breath.
I’m trying I swear
dying the words are
obsessive stop. r
I’m crying vulnerable up
cantbreathe feelings make your mind over
c h oking me here/ up whelmed
keeping me here the mind’s make fear
damage malignant ; contagious is this what I am un hinged is a dangerous
thing to be figure out how to
this mind viper breathe and sani
my hands are dirty ty will follow I
somebody p swear I won’t
l danger to my
a self I can do this
n my arms strong
t but not l ong
One slip, a falling trick, then she’s in his arms, a CRASH.
He traces her Picasso cheekbones. The back of his hand comes away, a smear of soft yellow glitter.
She frets about the smear. Do I still look alright? She fears.
It looks fine. But then the eyes. Can you see them? She asks. They follow her. There are so many.
He doesn’t know what to say. Can he make it up to her, in any way? He’s not sure what he did wrong.
There was Shakespeare on his tongue,
and a butterfly in his lungs.
Both made his dangerous.
Both rendered him unloved.
He was afraid
of what to say,
of what to feel.
It all got stuck in his throat,
a clump of paper and honey.
Nothing was easier to swallow.
Innocence was one thing,
but courage was another.
To pick up the sword,
to shout into the abyss.
He was new to living,
but he didn’t want to waste it.
The hilt was supple in his palm,
so were the words to that song.
The one in the back of his beautiful mind.
She had red earlobes,
and purple puncture wounds.
Lying on her side,
I asked her name.
She seemed used to the question.